This is something I do just to numb the pain,
to avoid those voices telling me how pathetic I am.
I know I'm wrong, I know I might be hurting someone who probably loves me.
But I just need this to make the heart pump, to feel a bit more alive.
To... release all these demons within my soul.
These non-sense feeling that takes away my sleep...
I don't know why, it kills me after I do it but...I can't help it